The Real Me Is Truth and Love

It could have been yesterday that I gave birth to you, the time has flown right by me.  3 years ago today you were only two days old happiest when snuggled right next to my heartbeat or getting your fill of breast milk.  Now you are a walking, talking, happy, smiling, energetic powerhouse, when you aren't around I feel the empty space in my heart that waits for your return.

You are that light at the end of the tunnel, the one that can lead me to heaven if I am unafraid and remain steadfast in my resolve to follow you to all the places you will lead. Because your heart is pure, you can teach mine to be the same.  I will teach you how to live in this world but you will teach me how to live without it for you are happy no matter what the circumstances.

We believe the more we know about this life the better of  we will be; You do not understand life yet you instinctively know that life is meant to be enjoyed, you live to smile, laugh and play, you know how to make yourself happy; You make me wonder," Is there more to life than doing what makes you happy?"

You are a mirror, a reflection of everything I taught you, everything the outside has taught you is now inside of you.  Your world is different from the one in which I grew up, technology is bursting out of every aspect of your life between smartphones, smart toys and smart television you are learning at a paste far ahead of your age.

Love and heartache walks hand in hand, the risk we all take when we open up our hearts, the reason why most would rather leave it closed.  I will never choose to stop loving you Jojo, it would mean that I do not love myself. You are and will always be a big part of me, my baby, my child, my firstborn son.